The world is a little darker...

I was her Princess. Only two people were allowed to call me that and she was one. I was her Princess and she was my Auntie Mags.

I had just posted on her wall last night making fun of Twilight as I know how much she adores it when I recieved a message. I thought it was a joke. A cruel, horrible, thoughtless joke because there was no way it could be real. How could it be real? How could one of the sweetest souls I have ever come across be taken away? It made no sense.

But it wasn't a joke, it wasn't some horrible awful nightmare because when I woke up, the news was still there.

The world is a bit darker today. and even now, there are clouds outside and i'm waiting for it to rain, it seems as though it should be.

I have forged many friendships online. I have met so many wonderful people and have found myself closer to them then a lot of people not online. In this day and age, that's how it is with most people and no one bats an eyelash at it. Maggie was one of those wonderful friendships I found. I always promised her that when I was allowed back in the States I would come visit her and it hurts to say that won't be happening now.

she was so sweet and full of love and during times when I didn't hear from her, I would ask her why. Especially if something was wrong why didn't she talk to me and her response was that she never wanted to bug anyone. She always worried that she was a nuisance to people but it was never the case and just one look at her facebook page shows that everyone else felt the same way.
Maggie Mae

I met her online through either a wrestling group or a writing group. We did share those in common and no matter what she always had an encouraging word for anyone. I would talk to her online, sometimes hours at a time, especially when things were rough and she would never let me give up on myself or the situation. She listened, actually listened and always had advice to offer.

We exchanged snail mail christmas cards and I never do that with anyone.

Ugh there is no way I'm going to get through this whole blog at one time. 

And I was right, I couldn't...i mean, I had to finish this days later...

I'm not big on the whole crying thing but I spent 2 day's bawling my eyes out over this and yet at the same time, it's Auntie Mags, she'd want to know why I was crying over this.
I don't think she realized how loved she was, I don't think anyone had ever said a bad word against her and it's very rare to meet someone like that nowadays. It really is.

I remember she used to send me pictures of her meeting different wrestlers and asked if I met them and what they were like. If she told me I was meeting someone I knew, she would go up to them and talk about me. or even tell someone I didn't know that her niece was training. she was just so darn proud of me. When moms, (luna) said she was making a Desiree Brent hoody (limited edition for the few who wanted them ;) lol) and Auntie Mags was one of the first people to want one.... Now I kinda want to get that done... even if it's just the one, just for her.

I've struggled with getting my wrestling career started because I'm so accident prone. I've been frustrated on so many levels and she was there whenever I needed to vent and I always left with a smile. her unwavering faith in me and what I was capable of was something I will NEVER forget.

Ugh... I know i can go on and on for pages talking about the wonderful woman that will be sorely missed and never forgotten. But really, what more can I say about her that everyone doesn't already know.

The world lost someone super special... a lot of people lost a wonderful friend.

I'm going to go listen to Jessie's girl on repeat and remember the lovely woman that has touched so many hearts.

Auntie Mags, you'll be forever with us, we will never forget you, we will always love you...

Love always,
Your Princess.